[ORANGE] I wish I could bottle the way you look at me

I love the way it goes down, oh babe, I wanna drown

In February 2018 I wore orange from head to toe for the entire month. It was uncomfortable.

In New York city, in winter, nearly everyone else is wearing black. To wear a bright color is to appear festive and happy - which is almost never how I feel in winter.

I felt like a fraudulent monster. But was treated like a joy. I wanted so much to feel the way …